I Ain't Going Back

I ain’t going back
I’ve put my hand to the plow
the Lord is leading me now
and I ain’t going back

Not to the life I used to live
what joy did it really give
I thought what I wanted
did what I wanted
said what I wanted
and my heart was empty still

I ain’t going back

I had family and friends
the good times never seemed to end
Went where I please
Lent my eyes to sleaze
Listened to gossip with ease
and my heart still didn’t mend

I ain’t going back

Like the setting of the sun
when the day is done
the darkness close in
I gave my life to sin
It seemed good to me then
Still my hearts cry was a lonely one

Remember those long ago summers
warm smelling like sun on grass
When your mother and father
were your safety net
and you didn’t have to fret
Not even that can compare
to the love of my Lord so dear

I ain’t going back

When you were very young
your whole future yet begun
The awkwardness of knowing yourself
relationships that didn’t work
all that pain and all that hurt

I ain’t going back

When you found that special someone
who became your life and breath
meaning the whole world to you
no room for no one else
giving up all yourself

Memories of the past
Music that was a blast
Good times we used to have
dancing to soul and jazz
We thought our hearts were truly full
and our souls satisfied
Through all the pain and all the tears
we wasted many years

And I ain’t going back

Now I have been born again
A second chance to begin
While I live
I’m going to praise the Lord
with a heart hard after God
Seek His Face
Never slacking the pace
until I win this race
and my heart is truly at rest in Him

I ain’t going back

© Copyright 1996 Teresa Adams Ware